What i was feeling today =]]

Dark night,there's rain out of my life...Just pain..want to try better life..black colours...Black thoughts...you can't find there any light....divided soul...unwritten feelings....there is no ''happy'' inside my life..complicated pictures...stopped time..i have no feeling what there's outside...unread Msg....there's msg tune everytime...I'm scared..I can't fix where are my thoughts..In my dreams I'm there...there are pictures..which I'm afraid of...there's night...I can't find..where is is the light....where i can go out...Looking for place,where i can hid....Hid from my thoughts...from my memories...It's immposible ,SO I'M DIEING