What i was feeling today =]]

Dark night,there's rain out of my life...Just pain..want to try better life..black colours...Black thoughts...you can't find there any light....divided soul...unwritten feelings....there is no ''happy'' inside my life..complicated pictures...stopped time..i have no feeling what there's outside...unread Msg....there's msg tune everytime...I'm scared..I can't fix where are my thoughts..In my dreams I'm there...there are pictures..which I'm afraid of...there's night...I can't find..where is is the light....where i can go out...Looking for place,where i can hid....Hid from my thoughts...from my memories...It's immposible ,SO I'M DIEING

DaSaSrUlIi : ))

Orshabatia…dila…ani dzlivs adga sawolidan chaicva da wavida skolashi…mobze mas xma gamortuli hqonda da daaxloebit ese mesame gakvze man naxa rom daaxloebit 10 msg da 20 gamotovebuli zari hqonda  roca gamotovebulli zarebi naxa gaukvirda radgan ucnobi nomeri urekavdaa xolo msg-ebic igive nomidan iyo mosuli  msg shinaarsi erti da igive iyo:dges gakvetilebis mere shen skolastan ro gacherebaa iq .anis gaukvirda vin und ayopiliyoo da yuragdebaa ar miaqcia…gaipiqra albat nomi sheeshalao…damatavrda tu ara gakvetilebi ani gacerebisken gaiqca radgan agviandeboda….rogorc iqna miaxwia iqamdee…daaxloebit 10 wutii arc erti avtobusi ar mosula..ani nerviulobdaa da daureka irinas:gogo cota damagviandeba ese 10 15 wuti :* irina :kai gogo maswavlebels vetyvi :* da am dros anis vigacam daudzaxa : ani rogor xar ramdeni xania ar minaxixar  dges rat oar aige ro girekavdi ? ani gasheshda …shemobrunebac ver gabeda radgan nacnobi xma gaigoo …guli is udzgerda lamis amovardniliyo….gio axlos movida gadakocna anis da gaaugima….ani : shen momwere ?? magram saidan gaige chemi nomi ? gio :magaze advili ra aris  rogorc iqna movida avtobusi da roive chajda…gzashi bevri ilaparakes da am laparakis dros inglisurs gacdnen  es anim sheamchnia da utxra gios magram man titqoos ar shemchnia….ani am gacherebaze apirebda chasvlas magram man sheachera da utxra : kau ra sad gechqareba ?? erti gakvetili ro gaacdino araperi moxdeba  ani usityvod datanxmda amis mere chumad ijdnen  ramdenime xnis mere giom tqva : aq chavidet  anic dataxmda  bneloda …ani ver xvdeboda sad midiodnen magraam ratomgac mas endoboda da ar eshinoda ro rames daushavebda  bolos giom ragac agmartze aiyvana da shua gzashi utxra :tvale daxuche kai ?? nu geshinia :* xoo mendobii ?? anim daupiqreblad upasuxa : ki…. Daaxloebii 20wutii ese iara mere shecerdnen da giom gaaxelnia tvalebii…anii gaaxila da dainaxa saocari adgili..eseti jer araperi enaxaa…lampionebii anatebdnen iqurobas..tba titqoos shavii iyoo… ..aqaiq xeebi idga da erti skamii ..romelistvisac titqoos specialurad daergat xeebi garshemoo…gio da NI IQ MIVIDNEN.. GIO : mogwons ? ani:ki taan dzaan ,eseti jer araperi minaxi gio: xoo mec dzaan momwons, aq amovdivar zolme roca martooba minda  ani :wo dzaan magari…daaxloebii 1 sati ilaparakes  mere ani wasasvlelad moemzada adga da gios utxra: kai wavedi ukvee gvianiaa imedia male gnaxav  gio :xo imedia ..anim aigoo cantaa da wavidaa…daaxloebi 1 wutshii gio daewia shemoatrialaa da moulodnelad akoca….anis winaagmdeobis gaweva undodaa magraam ragac dzala akavdebdaa  iseti grdnoba qonda titqoos grublebshi daprinavdaa didi xania luka uyvarda magraam misi caxutebi s dros eseti araperi ugrdzvnia  anim ucbat moishora gio da gaiqca ..titonac ar icoda ra shvebodaa….mitboda magraam ar icodaa sad..bneloda verapers xedavda ..bolos rogorc iqna mixvda sad iyoo..dzlivs gavida gacerebaze cajda avtobusii da wavida saxshii….mteli gza gioze piqrobdaa…roca saxshi mivida ukve gvianii iyoo magram iq araviin daxvda..es gasakviri ar iyoo radgaan mshoblebi gashorebulebi iyvnen ..ani mamastan cxovrobdaa ..deda amerikashi yavda tavis qmartan ertad…ase rom michveuli iyoo marto cxovrebas da damoukideblobas  mamamisi saxshi daaxloebit ese 1 saatze modioda …..ani dajda samecadinod magraam araperi gamosdioda.. shemdeg shevida abazanashi ,gadaivlo wyali da dawva……meore dges mshvenier xasiatze gaigvidza..skolashi wasvla dzalian ezareboda magaam sxva gza ar qonda ….chaicva …mamis sachmeli moumzada da saxlidan gavida..skolashi yvelaperi isev ise iyoo anu uazrood..meqvse gavkvetilze damrigebeli shemovida : bavshvebo tqventvis axali ambavi maq  xvalidan axali bichi gadmova tqventan da gtxovt ar gaagijot ..bavshvebi : ara mas ra problema…chven rogor unda gavagijot :D mtelma klasma gaicina ….am dges ise chaiara ro gios arc daurekia da arc msg mouweria….amis gamo ani dzaan mowyenili iyo…meore dges anu otxshabats skolashi ar wasula radgan sicxe hqonda (albat im dges gacivda ) anu ingzec ver wavidoda da dzalian ewyina  mteli dge saxshii iyoo..egona gio miwerda an daurekavdaa magraam ar chanda :S mteli dge komptaan ijda uazrood bolos rogorc iqna chaedzina ….xutshabats upro kargad iyoo amitoom gadawyvita wasuliyo sadme skolis garda…magraam ar icoda sad..boloos gaaxsenda is adgili romelic giom anaxa daa gadawyvita iq misuliyo…. Mteli dge iq iyoo…zogjer egona gio mova da vnaxavo magraam tyvilad piqobda amas saertod aravin gamochenila …ijda da chanawerebs werdaa…es misi hobi iyoo..amit ertoboda xolme da werda imas rasac grdznobda….ukve sagamos 8 st iyoo…anim verc igrdznoo rogor gavida droo …chantashi chado tavisi nawerebi (dges martla bevri chanaweri dawera ) da roca wasvla daapira vigacam daudzaxa : vaa ani ?? shen aq ra ginda ?? ar megona ese dzaan tu mogewona es adgili  gaixeda da es gio iyoo : xo ravii dzaan magari adgilia…dges skolashi wasvla ar mindoda da aq amovedi …gio : xoo magari anu skola gaacdine ?? me megona sxva klashii xo ar gadaveditqoo imito rom klashii ar damxvdi  ani : raa ?? :O shen xar is axal moswavle ?? da ratoo gadmoxvedii ?gio : ravi minda ro su shentan viyoo da imitm  anis esiamovna es sityvebii gaigima da kitxa : chemtaan ?? vaa  eg rodis aqet ?gio : ravii rac ingze gagicani dzaan momewone….da memgonii tan da tan miyvardebii …suu shenze vpiqroob su minda ro chagexutoo da shentan viyoo….ani am sityvebs ar eloda da daibna : xoo ravii…gio : davojero shen arapers grdznob chem. ..Mimart ?? ani : memgonii kii  zustad ar vici  magraam shen warmoidgine rac gagicani su shenze vpiqroob da yoel game mesizmrebii :S gio : auu ra magaria :*:* xoo da mashiin xval kapeshi gepatijebii :* matoo modii :*:*: ani : kai :*

Daaxloebit 2 kvira anis tavi yvelaze bednieri egona  is da giorg ertmanets yovel dge naxulobdnen ….. seirnonbdneen…..anis giorgii dzalian uyvardaa da oiqrobda ro ertmanet veraperi da verviin daahorebda magram ese ar moxda….ert dges roca giorgis shesaxvedrad midiodii giorgim daureka da utxra : ani gtxov cota swrapat shentan saqme maq….ani ver mixvda ra undodaa da interesiis gamo pexs auchqaraa….giorgii cud xasiatze iyoo ..ani xvdeboda roo giom ar icoda saedan daewyoo..daaxloebi20 wutsii chumad ijdneen da mere giom xma amoigo: anii isaa daa …ar vici rogor gitxra….pirvel rigshi minda icode ro dzalian miyvarxaar da rac ar unda moxdes meyvarebii  meore is ro sanam shen gnaxavdii daaxloebit 1 wlis win gavicanii gogo romelic shemiyvardaa…da davpirdi ro su ertad viqnebodiiit…maris simsimne hqonda da amitoom italiashii wavidaa…megona mokvda magraam ese ar yopila gusiin movida chemtaan…turme gadarchenila…dedachems dzalian gauxardaa …mindodaa dashooreba magraam dedamisma mitxra roo nerviuloba ar sheidzleba daa dzalian vuyvarvar mtxova ar dashordeoo..ar vicodii ra meqnaa magraam sxva gza ar maq da ani sorry unda davshordet  ani gashaterd ar cioda ra eqna ..ese ukve meored xdeba…arada egona ro su bednieri iqnebodaa….su giostan iqnebodaa magram ratom gac sxvanairad moxda….titqoos ocnebebii daemsxva …cxovrebaa agar undodaa ar icodaa rogor ecxovraa..ar undoda tirili magram cremlebi tavisit modioda…gios gaugima adga da wavida….ar icoda sad midioda ….ubralood gaqcea undodaa ..undodaa shors yopiliyo yvelaprisgan…..magla adioda magram sad ar icoda ..pexebi tavisit dadiodaa….bolos mixvda ro dzlian magraa iyoo…ucbat prena moundaa….egona prena yvelapers daaviwyebda….amoigoo purcelii da wera daiwyo dawera yvelaperi rasac grdznobdaa..merw wavida napiriskeen…gashala elebii..haerii elaparakebodaa titiqoos eubnebodaa: GAPRINDII!!!...erti nabijit win waiwia…..da gaprinda…….

Meore ges giom gaigvidzaa… ar jeroda ro roca anis naxavda ver caexuteboda da vear etyoda miyvarxaar…..undodaa daereka magraam ver gaaewyvitaa ..bolos aigoo teleponi akripa anis mobiluriis nomeri da dareka…yurmils ar igebdaa….gaukvirdaa…cota xanhii saxshi rekavs teleponii…gio gasakvirad es anis dedaa:gamarjoba gio me nis deda var…..ragac shewuxebuli xma qonda….:ar ici ani sadaa ?? gushiinn mteli dg ear gamocenula…gios yurmili gauvarda..ragac azrma gauelvaa…gaaxsenda ertxel ro utxra gioos: dzalian miyvarxar:* shen gareshe ar vici rogor vicxovreb:* tu mimatoveeb sicocxles azri ar eqneba da gavprindebii :*….gio ucbdat gaiqcaa..im adgilisken mirboda sadac anis uyvardaa yopna….mivida sad ar edzeba anii magraam ver ipovaa…erti adgili darca magraam gios jer kidev imedi qonda ro ani ar gaprindebodaa….tavelb daxuculma gadaixeda da rocaa gagaxila dainaxa ro ani GAPRENILA 